my name is Marlena Rivers…yeah, sounds like a fake name or porn star name, and it is a fake name. no i’m not a porn actress, but i had to create a name for this blog. because i’m not OUT at work about the bipolar thing… so some of this blog is about the dual identity thing… because it is a trip and i feel like a double agent, posing at work as a “normal” person and out to some friends and family… This blog used to focus on my relationship with my little doggie but he died in 2009. It also used to involve comic strips. I hope to bring that back sometime soon. Meanwhile I’ll be focusing on the idea of “hiding” my bipolar disorder and what that is like for me, and if it has changed since having the “baby” who is not a baby any more! And it’s more than dual identity now, as I feel split into many different roles, some coming with the bipolar part, some not. Being a bipolar mother versus mascquerading as a normal mother…
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bipolarnotesfromunderground 
wow i can so relate to that. i feel like im many different people and depending on my mood i either cope very well with motherhood or not so well, pretty much like the rest off my life! I dont have to work anymore , so no hiding who i am there , and atm i keep my horses on a small yard with some lovely girls that ive told about my disorder so again no pretending there. i do however understand that if people dont know or i dont think they would understand ,approve etc then often i dont tell them and my life becomes very secretive. if it wasnt so real it would be funny!
Emily. bipolar since age 27 ( diagnosed) 37 now and in a manic episode soon to be controlled with mind alterating drugs that i really dont want but have to for the sake of my daughter. I dont think im in a manic stage poss hyper but i know theres a lot more if this makes sense!! i have nop choice but to comply.